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By samantha, on December 5th, 2011%
This is Part Two to this story. If you haven’t read that one, this likely will not make much sense. So please read it first!
When the doorbell rang, I could feel myself getting anxious. I was about to let somebody else into this very personal space that has belonged to Harvey and I for years. I was excited to be able to show someone else just how good I can be for him, as well as to give him the threesome that he’s never had.
As our guest is a friend of mine, it wasn’t too difficult to be able to relax and enjoy a glass of wine while he cooked dinner. There was something very calming about the two of us sitting there, watching as he prepared a meal. I was at once highly on edge and completely chilled. I could still feel the wetness between my legs from my alone time with him and wondered if I would feel ashamed that there was someone else in the room now. I didn’t.
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By samantha, on October 4th, 2011%
I believe pretty strongly that every man and woman deserves to be presented with the opportunity for group sex. It might not be their thing and it’s ok to say no, but with only one life to live on this earth, why do so many spend theirs not working harder on their bucket lists?
I suppose for some, it’s a matter of circumstance. Which is why I’ve been hoping for years to be able to offer Harvey a threesome. People in my life that are nice should have nice things. And what’s nicer than two gals willing to do what you say, all nekkid and stuff?
So I kept it in the back of my mind for years. Relationships with others came and went; Harvey was always around. While our level of interaction has changed over the years, the idea was never shelved. Though I don’t think he really expected it would happen; and who can blame him considering we’ve known each other for 4.5 years already, sans group sex. Read more »
By samantha, on September 13th, 2011%
Ah dear NYMP. How I have neglected you so much this year. You understand though, don’t you? I have been so busy planning Digifest and Playground that a) my personal life has not been very exciting; in fact mostly sad and tragic and b) fuck it, I’m tiiiired. However, don’t fret. My worn out little brain has many posts for you to share with the world eventually, and one by one we will make it through.
For now I’m going to treat you to a little revelation I had last night. Before I get to said revelation, I will give you a bit of back story so we’re all on the same page.
You know about my relationship with Harvey. It’s been almost five years and we’ve gone through many different phases. From curious to friends, to kinksters who need to learn more, to backburner friends. And now we’ve arrived at this nice, happy place where we’re further evolving our dom/sub relationship. Gone are the days of me trying desperately to get him to validate my existence when in subspace. They have now been replaced by more responsible and respectful lines of communication; a sense of feeling very special and wanting to please him as a result, instead of wanting to please him to prove that I’m special.
Lately, as a result of this new found closeness, I have been thinking a lot about our relationship. Why does it work? What are my thoughts on his “situation”? What do I get out of it? What does he get out of it? Why do we like each other? And so on …
Then I realized something last night.
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By samantha, on August 20th, 2011%
When I first had the idea for Playground around the end of last summer, I had a lot more time on my hands. I had quit my job a few months prior to finish working on my non-monogamy guide book – which I promise to finish sooooon – and had seemingly all the time in the . . . → Read More: Why Playground? Why Now?
By samantha, on May 18th, 2011%
Unlike riding a bike, dating for me, is quite … unlike riding a bike. It’s not something I can just pick up again because there are so many factors like state of being, state of relationships and state of confidence that come into play each time.
However, I’ve come to the conclusion that maybe I should start at least consider dating again; men that is. I am really missing having another man in my life. As much as I lust and love after my husband, I cannot deny that other men bring a new emotional and / or sexual energy to my being that I haven’t connected with in a long time. To be honest though, I am pretty sure that the idea of dating again completely terrifies me. I don’t remember how to flirt with someone new and I’m pretty convinced that I don’t think I can be bothered with the whole “getting to know you” stage … again. Read more »
By samantha, on May 4th, 2011%
I really like the concept of ‘community’ in theory. I know there are countless people out there who have felt lost, alone, strange, weird, etc. until they stumbled upon a group of like-minded souls. Kindred spirits who would embrace them into their circle with open arms. “You no longer have to feel alone”, they might say to one another.
For many, the fight against oppression, prejudice, sexism, suffering and homophobia gives the individual an extra sense of “home” plus instant allies in the war against ignorance. These alliances are valuable and certainly something to hold dear.
Communities pop up for many reasons and in the sexuality sphere one exists for pretty much everything. If you can think it, a group has formed around it somewhere. For those with specific interests like kink for example, it makes sense that a movement is created around events, similar fetishes and social interaction. People of like minds come together to share life experiences in a safe, hopefully non judgmental environment. It’s human nature to want this. Read more »
By samantha, on March 1st, 2011%
Today I had an impromptu date with Harvey who happened to be available. I needed to escape into submission and he was available.
It was a quick hour and a half but it was totally what I needed to calm my brain down, if only for the time he was here. We haven’t been together in a . . . → Read More: Fit to be tied
By samantha, on February 7th, 2011%
Something I have always struggled with is letting go. It is rare that you will find me out of control because I don’t put myself into situations where it can happen. Being a control freak is not something I consider myself. I am plenty happy letting other people plan things or take over as I believe in encouraging everyone’s strengths to come through. My main trouble comes with personally letting go in areas that don’t really affect anyone else, but me. It’s only recently that I’ve put it all together and realized how deep this weird control thing runs in me and here is what I’ve learned.
Logical Fantasies
I’ve mentioned this one before, but I’ve really thought it through now. Celebrity fantasies are a good example of something that I find impossible to do. It doesn’t matter who the celebrity is, if I’m going to dream about them in my bed I’m going to spend 98% of my daydreaming time figuring out the scenario to get them there. And yes, I can bend logic a little for this, but there’s no way that I could just have Alex O’Loughlin suddenly appear next to me in bed … or is there??
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By samantha, on April 26th, 2010%
It’s been a while since I turned the mirror on myself for a little self-examination and I think I’m overdue so here goes.
Most of you already know. I’ve been in an open marriage for 3.5 years and it probably saved my relationship, or at the very least saved from a life of denying that I was unhappy when it truth I must have been when I think of how ridiculously happy I am now. (I mean it only makes sense!) Read more »
By samantha, on July 21st, 2009%
The jury is still out on chivalry and its relation to equality, and I think always will be. The politically correct ninjas of the 90′s would like everyone to believe that men and women are equal, but I think somewhere along the line the message got a little skewed. Just like in that little book, oh . . . → Read More: And the lady will have …
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