Yes, Daddy. No, Daddy.

It’s been a long time since I’ve written a date recap, for many reasons. 80% of the people I’m dating or have dated aren’t super interested in having their stories up online for the world to see. Even if nobody┬áreally knows who they are, it weirds some people out, so I tend to either write . . . → Read More: Yes, Daddy. No, Daddy.

Returning to Kink and Choosing to Trust Again

It’s not hard to go back to a more vanilla life. It’s not hard to have wonderful sex with your husband that still fulfills you in so many ways, even if it’s not kinky. It’s not hard to have to ask lovers to be choked, to have your hair pulled, or to be smacked around.

. . . → Read More: Returning to Kink and Choosing to Trust Again

The Samantha Script

While searching tonight for dirty photos of myself to put on my new pr0n Twitter … yes, that’s a thing … I’ve found myself getting a little lost in old emails / screenshots from exes of the past. Yes, I save this stuff. I know I probably shouldn’t; I know that my “memory” should serve . . . → Read More: The Samantha Script

Foolish Optimism

At times when I haven’t written in a while, like now, I find the thought of posting something again slightly overwhelming. Everything has to have a purpose or a point, and instead of just letting myself write and the words flow, I have to write about a specific topic. At the moment I have a . . . → Read More: Foolish Optimism

In One Piece

Falling in love gets me into trouble. I tend to fall for people who are great at describing situations I want to be involved in, but not so great at making those situations a reality. I’ve told myself that I’m cool with just casual things now, that my heart went through enough last year, so . . . → Read More: In One Piece

Real Chat. Real Feelings.

Tonight, Steph is going on a first date. He hasn’t had a first date, or actually ANY dates, for a long time. He’s had much more practice dealing with me seeing other people than I have with him. Over the years, it’s been a struggle for me. It’s felt like he’s kept things from me . . . → Read More: Real Chat. Real Feelings.

What I’ve Learned During My Year Alone (ish)

It’s been almost a year that I spent my last day of teaching video game development, after leaving my other job(s) / contract ending about a month and a half prior. So, as embarrassing as it sounds for me personally, the truth is that I’ve been officially unemployed for a year now.

Of course, I . . . → Read More: What I’ve Learned During My Year Alone (ish)

Afraid To Fall

For most of my adult life, I’ve always embraced everything that comes along with falling for somebody new. It’s a feeling that I simply adore. New Relationship Energy (NRE) and I get along like nobody’s business. And, like a person lost in puppy love fever, I seem to trust all of the decisions I make . . . → Read More: Afraid To Fall

An Open Letter to the Notification Fairy

Dear Notification Fairy,

I know what you’re trying to do, but I have to let you know that it’s not working. I understand that it seemed like a good idea at the time, adding the “Seen” timestamp to Facebook messages or the “Read” receipts to iMessage; thankfully Apple gives us the option to turn at . . . → Read More: An Open Letter to the Notification Fairy

People Are Strange, When You’re a Stranger

There are millions of us out there; people who’ve loved another but now walk the earth apart. It’s pretty standard when it comes to breaking up. Either gradually or in an instant, that person you were once so close with, no more has a place in your life.

It’s not always this way, though. There . . . → Read More: People Are Strange, When You’re a Stranger